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Monday, September 12th, 2005
4:38 pm	; ) i feel like a little girl, who has a crush on a boy and blushes everytime he passes hoping he will say hey, it feels good to have one after not focusing on it for such a long time i think falls just the season to get a crush and start a relationship, the weather is colder need someone to stay close with to keep you warm im not going to get my hopes up cause whenever i do something always goes wrong but im just hoping to get to know him better hehe i love how everyone has crushes i think its cute Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: kelly clarkson-where is your heart (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
8:53 pm	wtf im at the beach right now, ive been here for a few days its nice. im hoping to get really tan and my hair to turn really blonde my sister leaves tomorrow because her classes start at meredith but she might be coming back thursday night so thats something to look forward 2 do you think that people can fall in love at 13 and 14? i didnt think you could but its funny how i can still think about this certain person and want us to be together after like a year and a 1/2 you were everything i could ever ask for in a boyfriend, and its like i dont want anyone else, no one else makes me feel the way you did, but your so far out of reach, moved on, and i cant pick myself up and move on 2, ithank you for being such an awesome boyfriend and treating me so well, but im so bitter because i believe that i will never find a better bf and yet amazing friend then waht you were 2 me Current Mood: listless Current Music: a movie in the backround (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
2:08 pm	saranac wow its been a while since ive updated this thing i just got back from ny sunday morning at 630. i was at saranac. It was amazing i didnt want to leave the week went by so fast. Saranac is this 8 mile lake runned by younglife that is breath taking. Over the week i went parasailing, tubing, waterskiing,did this awesome ropes course and did so many fun things. i learned how to square dance and stuff the right way and got to dress up in 50's cloths for a 50's night. The first night there we got crazy muddy and gross in this obsticle course they had. I wish i didnt have to leave. I learned alot in the talks after club and realized alot of the areas i need to work on to be a stronger christian. I cant wait till next year, i hope so many more people come and just have a fun time like i did campaigners has started back up again on monday nights at 7:30 and usually last till 9:15 next monday campaingers will be at scott brewers in mcgregor downs if you need directions hit up my cell 605-5720 im soon to be working at the coffee shop in impact and i couldnt be happier to work there for my first job umm ya thats all i feel like typing Current Mood: happy Current Music: tim mcgraw (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
5:20 pm	oh i love when people... i really love when people talk crap about me and i dont even hang out with them ya i really really like it it just makes me feel SOoOoOoO good Current Mood: sick Current Music: goo goo dolls (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 6th, 2005
7:43 pm	lately uh nothing really has been going on that great, i had 2 soccer games today and the first one got me so worked up but thats okay. we tied the first one and won the second one. uh i think im going to the beach thursday night till saturday night with a bunch of girls it should be alot of fun. friday i didnt do anything and then saturday i went to my friend caitlins house, she is an awesome person and i love her my emotions are all over the place lately ive been feeling pretty down randomly for no reason at all but also disapointed, have you ever gotten in those moods where you could just cry for no reason?, well anyways but i also had really hyper emotions 2 its wierd. but god has been teaching me some awesome things this week i feel like each day im getting closer to him and it feels awesome uh ya this is sorta a pointless entry sorry if you read this whole thing the end Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: scott cash/everyday (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
5:57 pm	uh im getting baptised tonight at 7 with megan and i am extremly nervous my hands are like shaking but im glad im getting the support by alot of my friends thank you guys for coming out to support me it means alot uh come if you can its at apex baptised i would love to see you Current Mood: nervous but excited Current Music: copeland-she changes your mind (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
5:50 pm	im dyeing my hair agian if it sokay with my mom im not going to do it like i said im going to, im going to put more blonde in it and some brown again but ya you all will see hopefully i can get it done soon hope everyone had a great day Current Mood: happy Current Music: freaking news in the backround (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
3:35 pm	thinking about dying my hair brown or like really dark brown underneath with lighter brown ontop with a few blonde highlights or an auburn brown color hmmm comment and tell me if i should dye my hair or not Current Mood: tired Current Music: general hospital (6 Comments |Comment on this)
6:35 am	peaceout so umm for valentines day i went out with these great girls named caitlin, emily, ashley, and brooke and we went to olive garden and it was really good. this weekend i think im going to metamorphosis it will be my one year soon for when i surrendered my life to jesus and asked him to wipe away my sins. since that year i know ive made alot of mistakes please dont judge me for them im trying to start over new and stop some of the things i was doing um school sucks i hope i dont fail 9th grade for missing over 10 days i hope i havent yet um nothing excitings going on sorry guys this is like a pointless entry and umm thursday im going out with jean marie and i think emilia and some other girls to dinner and then to the conference game it should be exciting well im outi have to finish getting ready for school peace Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
3:24 pm	the freshman ski trip was awesome it went by so fast one of the best experiences ever. on the way back i talked to jean marie for like 4 hours it was awesome she is an amazing person and god shines through her like crazy shes definitly someone i look up 2. o ya shes my new mentor 2! i love her i stayed home today cause things werent going so good last night and ya umm if you read this and you are in any of mmy classes can you comment back my hw that would be spectacular. i cant wait till tomorrow for dinner and younglife Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: casting crowns-your love is extravagent (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
2:52 pm	ive been so happy lately. i dont know whats gotten into me i dont know what it is but ive just been so happy and i feel like ive grown up alot and learned not to care about certain things and not try to plan the way i want my life to be just let it go whereever its going, ive learned that things cant always be perfect and that you have to live with what you got and be happy with it :) theres this kid named josh and hes an amazing person he makes me so happy hes such a sweetheart and it just feels right even tho i haven known him that long but it just seems like things are falling into place of where they need to be and i really hope things work out between us anyways i hope everyone had a great day and if any of yall need to talk if yall are upset im always here for you even if i dont know you that well ill try my best to give you soem advice well i love yall and i hope you have a good day Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: tim mcgraw - my best friend (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
7:29 pm	jesus im ready to come home Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: underoath (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
3:19 pm	wong chong fing crong you bitch wrong and its sad it took me this long to realize it Current Mood: chill Current Music: underoath (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 8th, 2005
3:23 pm	dont lasst night i went to the apex vs cary game and it sucked because cary won but it was a good game anyways i was screaming like non stop haha then i went to lees with zach and had an awesome time um lately ive been thinking about wahti want in my life and the things ive been doing lately arent what i want i mean ya i really want to smoke and drink and what not but is it really worth it in the end,i mean i dont regret ever smoking or drinking because ive learned from it and i wouldnt take that back but i want so bad to go back to how i used to be before i smoked or drank, and back to how i was when i was a stong christian, i have gone from a strong christian so to someone who does one thing wrong after another. there are times when i try so hard to get back to i was and it will last like a few days and just fades away, i really odnt want that and thats why im looking forward to crossroads this year hopefully it will put me back to where i need to be. and when im having a hard time or when life isnt going right i go to things that just make me temporary happy i dont go to him like i used to and like i should. and if any of my friends read this please dont ask me to smoke or drink with you because it really gets to me and i know if i am offered then i will want to do it right on the spot just please try to help me not give into temptation ps im getting plump and fat i need to work out haha ive gained like 5489305 pounds hope everyone has a greattt day :) Current Mood: lazy Current Music: underoath-some will seek forgiveness others escape (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
7:01 pm	keep on changing my mind today was pretty boring along with alot of other stuff thats been going on, nothing really exciting has happened to me recently that i have wanted to put in here i had a good time sunday night and thats about it o ya and i walked from downtown apex to my friend cailtins house and she lives like close to hwy 55 ya it was a nice walk um drivers ed definitly sucks and alot of people need to chill out and realize what they say and how they hurt people back off bitches Current Mood: tired Current Music: oasis (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
12:24 pm	HAPPY BIRTHDAY MCY D I LOVE YOU Current Mood: ow my overys hurt so bad Current Music: copeland (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 25th, 2004
2:11 pm	i love christmas i got.. -a new phone for my room its so tiny it looks like a cell phone -printer -snowboard!! -snowboarding boots -bindings -2 pairs of awesome snowboarding gloves -tinkerbell shirt, a panties purse things, chapstick and a hot picture frame with me and megan in it <thanks megan <3 -some delias shoes and hand sanatizer< thanks nichol <3 -80 gig storage for my comp! -undies - 2 delias shirts -a shirt from a boone store from my sis thanks sissy <3 -a nice watch from broc :) -acrilic paints, paint brushes, paint container, and canvas's -razors - a painting book -cd labels -cdrs -camis -snowboarding video Current Mood: chipper Current Music: jimmy eat world (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:23 am	<td bgcolor="red"> You Are Whole Lotta Love You are interested in 2 things in this world: Love and sex. You are a complete romantic (and probably a big whore.) You just want to be loved. You really value your friends and your family, but more than anything, you value your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/person you are stalking. You don't necessarily value yourself very much, but it's ok because you will find someone else to value you. Sad, but you're oblivious, so it doesn't matter. Take the Which Led Zeppelin Song Are You? Quiz sweeeeeeeeeeeeet wtf (Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
9:04 pm	i got my hair done today i love it idk if other people will but i like it alot cause its all in my head i think about it over and over again i replay it over and over again and i cant take it i cant shake it no everything is just happening so fast i really dont know what to think, i dont know how i feel but whatever i dont even know why i care about it i just need to get over myself and move on my grandmas is getting surgery on her head as i type this pray for her please ^she fell down adn cracked her skull and knee open and her heart is really weak and there afraid about the surgery becuase they dont want her heart to get stressed out but ya keep her in your prayers please ps my punching bag is my new best friend Current Mood: pensive Current Music: nelly and tim mcgraw-over and over again (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
4:47 pm	ugh my aol account deleted my lauren66817 screen name so i had to make another one its laurenlovesderby ya it might change its just a filler for now unless i become attached to it haha well comment on my thing and leave your sn so i cna add you Current Mood: content Current Music: daphnelovesderby (5 Comments |Comment on this)